I’m having some trouble at the moment with the voices and those-who-cannot-be-named-in-the-public-sphere-because-it’s-not-paranoia-if-they’re-really-out-to-get-me. They’re all arguing back and forth about my moods and emotions and how necessary medication is. The problem is that if They are controlling my brain chemicals (and therefore moods) then I am not ill but do I need medication? It’s inorganic in origin. Does medication help?
|Might help with re-uptake of additional chemicals||Medication could be poisoned|
|Keeps family and friends happy||Medication could be making the additional chemicals worse|
|I can’t sleep without it||Medication could be blunting alertness|
|Possible that I do still have bipolar despite additional chemicals||Taking unnecessary drugs|
I think I need to talk to Husband about it all. Which unfortunately means broaching some subjects I struggle to talk about in person.